My Autistic Self

My blog about myself as an autist and my experiences with autism. Information and explanation for people without autism, a view of the world from someone with autism.

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A garden metaphor 08 Dec 2021 As I like to do, I was talking to a friend of mine. A conversation that was actually about many things. How we thought about the world, its history and...
World Autism Day, the blue problem 23 Feb 2021 It is almost that time again, World Autism Day. The day when many organisations celebrate the diversity of the spectrum. The day when autistic people are put in the spotlight...
2020, what a year! 31 Dec 2020 2020, the year in which Corona (COVID) was most central to our lives. 2020 was a strange year, where we were mainly at home. For me, this year was really...
Hyperfocus and Beginning (tm) 08 Oct 2020 It has been a while since I made a post. This is partly due to a lack of inspiration and partly because I am busy with other things than writing....
Video webinar online! 28 Sep 2020 I gave a webinar on 26 August. This was recorded via Microsoft Teams and I put this recording online. You can watch this video here. So if you didn’t have...
Webinar - The journey to my diagnosis 18 Aug 2020 On the 26th of August at 20:00 in the evening I will give a webinar about my journey to the diagnosis of autism. It will be my personal story in...
Dealing with ableism 09 Jul 2020 Society has a problem. A problem with anomalies. As soon as you deviate from what society sees as the norm, you are closed out. This does not always happen consciously,...
Webinar Vera Helleman - A review 22 Jun 2020 Last week, 17 June 2020, Vera Helleman gave a webinar entitled “The Power of Autism”, about what she called “the three pillars of autism”. Together with about 650 other people...
Talk about autism 10 Jun 2020 Before I was diagnosed with “Asperger’s Syndrome” at the age of 30, I didn’t really know anything about autism. It was something I had never looked at. It was outside...
The art of procrastination ... 03 Jun 2020 There are plenty of times for me to think that I didn’t want to do something in my life. Things I’ve dodged, decisions I haven’t made, or even put off...
Beautiful sides of my autism 19 May 2020  in persoonlijk Today I was asked the question: “What do you think are the beautiful aspects of your autism?” I think this is a very nice question! Especially because a lot of...
Anxiety, stress, tension and autism 13 May 2020 I had an interview with Autism in Context about fear, stress, tension and autism. This interview was posted on their YouTube channel “Fear and Autism”. On this channel you can...
Self diagnosis in the Netherlands 29 Apr 2020 Diagnosing your own autism when you have no education or experience to do so, is that anything you can do at all? Opinions run out of one. Here in the...
Acceptance of Autism - The How and Why 21 Apr 2020 For some people, accepting the fact that they are autistic is quite a challenge. When I was diagnosed, I was also told that I would go through a grieving process....
How do you think positively? | Stay happy 15 Apr 2020 Following feedback on my previous blog post I am writing this post today. Thinking positive is not the easiest as I already wrote. However, there are a few tricks and...
The power of positivity | Stay happy 08 Apr 2020 It’s a wonderful thing, the human brain. We are able to form thoughts about all kinds of things and yet there are things that don’t always go well. It is...
The AutCast podcast has started! 02 Apr 2020 Today, on world autism day 2020, it is time! My first episode of the AutCast has come online. As part of the autism week I had the idea to launch...
Online week of #Gaut 31 Mar 2020 It’s so far! Autism Week 2020 has been going on for a few days now. Unfortunately it is a bit a different week than normal for autism week. Where normally...
Lifeline 24 Mar 2020 Weird word actually, lifeline. Yesterday I was in bed and very restless. Restless because of everything that’s going on in the country. The worries about people in my family who...
The color of autism is gold 11 Mar 2020 We’re in March. Next month is autism month and in the Netherlands autism week. Different things are organized for this. Many organizations try to bring autism to the attention of...
The role of spokesperson 04 Mar 2020 Most people today have heard the word autism. Many people only know autism from TV or from the news. Or maybe used as a horror image by people who promote...
Time is a strange thing 25 Feb 2020 . Time is a concept we don’t think much about. Time is a way of measuring how long something has been or how long it will last. As we now...
The problem with #LightItUpBlue 21 Feb 2020 Maybe you’ve heard of it before, the campaign of organisations dealing with autism to illuminate their buildings in blue to draw attention to autism. Different buildings are then put in...
Autism is a construction, not a disease New scientific research 11 Feb 2020 Recently, a so-called “primer” has been released in which the state of scientific research into autism is discussed. The original article can be read by anyone via this link but...
17 ways to say “I love you” in neurodivergent 05 Feb 2020 I copied this list from @SNeurotypicals who shared it via The Aspergian. I have translated it into Dutch :smile: 17 Ways to Say “I Love You” in Neurodivergent: I saw...
How a traffic light and pans can help 04 Feb 2020 In the past I have followed the necessary therapies to cope with my depression. One of those therapies was to make a so-called signalling plan. This is a plan in...
It all starts with understanding 29 Jan 2020 Understanding each other is the most important thing on the way to a good society in my eyes. Having an understanding for someone else is important, but having an understanding...
Meltdown - Old vs New behavior 22 Jan 2020 My thoughts are running through my head and through each other. My head is full and I notice I’m scared. My body gives all the classical signals for this; my...
36 questions for me 15 Jan 2020 Something different today. On different blogs you will come across them, the lists of questions generally asked to people to get to know each other better. So there are 36...
Autism as a cloud 09 Jan 2020 A spectrum (also called gradient) - (plural: spectra or spectrums) is a range of consecutive colours or sounds or other varieties. This term is often used in physics. Wikipedia When...
Thinking in terms of solutions, not problems 06 Jan 2020 A few years ago a manager said to me: “We need to start thinking more in terms of solutions within this company”. This statement stayed with me when I started...
Happy Holidays and a Happy New Year! 24 Dec 2019 In my previous post I already looked back at 2019. Today I would simply like to wish you all Happy Holidays and a Happy New Year! Thank you for reading...
End of the year 16 Dec 2019 It’s the end of the year. 2019 was a year for me in which a lot has happened. It is the year in which I started this blog and in...
Welcome to the team little guy 03 Dec 2019  in persoonlijk You turned 6 this year. Ever since you were two, your mother has noticed differences between you and your sister. And yesterday you were diagnosed with autism. And now I...
What is Neurodiversity? 28 Nov 2019 When I started looking for Twitterers to follow about autism, I soon came across @NeuroRebel. She has been (among other things) a great inspiration to start this blog. She is...
Asperger is also just autism 25 Nov 2019 There are people who don’t think Asperger’s syndrome is autistic. These people think that Asperger is so far removed from classical autism that it does not even fall into the...
Autumn days, relaxation days 19 Nov 2019 It’s wonderful, the fall. The days become shorter, the nights longer, the weather colder and the people less often on the street. Most of them stay at home in front...
Lack of structure 12 Nov 2019  in persoonlijk The myth is that autistic people are always organized and plan everything they do. I call this a myth, because for me this is not the case. I am very...
Breaks 05 Nov 2019 “It’s time for a break!” it sounds through the room. A supervisor of the day care where I come announces that it is time again for the time to sit...
Hungry for information | Postcasts about Autism 30 Oct 2019 “I’m not curious, I just want to know everything!” This used to be one of my regular statements. I’m always looking for information, on all kinds of different subjects. To...
Cobwebs in my head 24 Oct 2019 Where Michel talks about his drawers in his head, I want to talk today about something in between with me. When I try to explain my way of thinking to...
Storm | A poem 17 Oct 2019 It sometimes storms in my head Thoughts rage, feelings hunt Storm in my head When I look around me in my dreams, A lot of things are passing by Thoughts...
My depression and my recovery 14 Oct 2019  in persoonlijk 1 in 3 young adults and 2 in 3 adults. That is the statistic of autists with depression. A shocking amount of people. And unfortunately I was also one of...
Dungeons and Dragons | Fantasy free rein 10 Oct 2019  in Dungeons and Dragons Storytelling. In essence, this is what Dungeons and Dragons is all about. Dungeons and Dragons is a game where a story is told by a so-called Dungeon Master and the...
I am an autist vs I have autism 07 Oct 2019  in persoonlijk Which is it? Do you have autism or are you an autist? The choice is pretty clear to me; I am an autist. Autism is a part of who I...
Music vs. Silence 01 Oct 2019 When I’m busy with work or writing this blog, for example, I “need” to have music on. I know there are many people who prefer to work in silence, but...
10 money questions for ... 30 Sep 2019 Following the above post from Tistje, I thought it would be nice to fill this out for myself and share this with you. Do you spend a lot time think...
Site update; no more Disqus 26 Sep 2019 Since I started this blog I have used a comment system called Disqus. This blog was not actually used by visitors to my blog. Not so strange actually, because most...
Theory of Mind - Thinking Differently 17 Sep 2019 Theory of mind, or TOM, is the science of human thinking. How people think and how they come to certain thoughts. In my review of Tony Attwood’s book I already...
Being overstrung and hyposensitivity 11 Sep 2019  in persoonlijk Apparently I was overwhelmed the last few days. I felt “off”, not good in my skin and grumpy. Apparently that was the reason for some of my own behaviors and...
Stardate 73135.3 Social Anthropologist Log 02 Sep 2019 ==== Start Log ==== I have often felt a stranger among these beings and today is no different. I have been inhabiting this planet for 35 years now and have...
Honesty and other misconceptions 27 Aug 2019 There are enough misconceptions about autism. There are quite a few prejudices and they sometimes make it difficult to deal with autism. People who are diagnosed at a somewhat later...
The Complete Guide To Asperger's Syndrome - Review 20 Aug 2019 During my vacation I read the book “The Complete Guide To Asperger’s Syndrome” by Tony Attwood. And today I want to write a piece about this. Put first; this book...
Vacantion mode 06 Aug 2019 It is summer vacation. The first two weeks of my vacation I have my children on the floor. Enjoying their presence. It also helps me to stay in my rhythm....
Visual thinker 23 Jul 2019 I’m an visual thinker. Many people with autism are visual thinkers. When someone tells something I see it happening in my head. Sometimes it happens that I start to laugh...
Pokémon Go as an ice breaker 16 Jul 2019 I play Pokémon Go. Yes I am an adult and play Pokémon Go. Again after having stopped for a while. Why? Because it’s a fun game. It connects people do...
Disorder? Condition? Disease? 12 Jul 2019 Autism. ASD or Autism Spectrum Disorder. That’s what it’s called. Logical that it is called that way, but I actually do not agree. Autism is a “pervasive developmental disorder” according...
Positive autism 08 Jul 2019 Let’s talk about positive autism! There is much talk about the negative sides of autism, the disadvantages and the issues that people with autism encounter. Things that are not going...
I am I, said the fool 03 Jul 2019  in persoonlijk For years I thought I was crazy. This was a fact for me. I was always different from the people around me. I had many problems with “belonging” and adapting...
Sleepless nights 27 Jun 2019 Because of my hyposensitivity, I regularly “suffer” from sleepless nights. That I am still awake at around two o’clock, seemingly in no need of sleep. Then I look at the...
Social camouflage 25 Jun 2019 “I don’t notice that you have autism!” True, if you meet me you may not immediately recognize that I have ASD. I learned to hide that in my younger years....
Do you state during your application that you have ASD? 22 Jun 2019 A question that is sometimes asked is whether you should state that you have ASD when applying. My idea is that, in principle, you do not state that directly on...
Still waters run deep 19 Jun 2019 “You can stay calm with things like this!” a friend once said to me when she called me in an emotional emergency. The precise circumstances are not important, but the...
Undersensitivity and Autism 18 Jun 2019 Since a year or five I now know that I have autism, Asperger syndrome. Since then, much has been searching for myself. Lots of thinking and talking to people around...
Introduction 17 Jun 2019  in persoonlijk Welcome to my new blog. My name is David, I’m 35 years old and have Asperger’s. I have decided to make this blog to give information about autism and to...

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